A little reminder

Remember in the previous post I mentioned something about a spastic SPA? Well, it turns out that I didn't do as badly as I had imagined.

Well, today was the last day of Term 1 of my JC life. How quickly time has flown and how much time I have wasted.

I was keen to work hard, motivated by the makeup of my current class. Keeping that up for a few weeks seemed manageable at first, until I succumbed to temptations of relaxation and basically slacking.

I have back-slided. I have not completed or fulfilled any of the goals I had set out for myself, academic or not. I have failed thus far.

It is fitting that this post serves as a reminder to me as I type it out that the final goal of my academic life in RI(JC) is not as far as I might like to believe. I said so myself during Econs class today.

This is a reminder to me to stop slacking and start working. They say that life is not just about academics, but I beg to differ now. I am a student, a occupation that can be found on many of the internet drop-down lists during registrations. It is a duty, a burden but burdens only make one stronger.

I am in no way on par with anyone in my class. I can be considered one of the weakest relatively and thus am in no position to procrastinate, slack or waste my time away.

I need to start working harder, smarter, faster. I need to stop whatever I am doing wrong and start doing things the right way. I need to stop failing in my self-discipline, stop failing to control my urges to watch videos or surf websites online.

I have a potential to fulfil. I cannot let the people who have expectations in me down. I cannot fail my own self-pride.

I cannot fail myself anymore.

This may perhaps be one of the last posts on this blog for a long, long time. Should there be an update in the near future, it will be one of necessity, or I may have changed my mind and decided that time is not wasted here... let's see how it goes.

Until next time, this blog and blogger bids adieu to the blogosphere.

Perhaps

Perhaps I should have studied for the SRP test today. I got totally pwnzed by it...

Perhaps I should have left more blanks during the test. I could have a non-zero score right now...

What a gloomy day. My mum said something over the phone about it being such good weather at our house. Two seconds later, clouds gathered and it started pouring.

Why does the universe just love to prove everything we say wrong?

Words fail me

Totally not in a bad way. I just have no idea what I want to label this post, so that's just to fill up the otherwise empty title.

To the one person who read the previous post and asked me how I was, thank you very much. Got over my sadness, but the pain somehow still remains deeply ingrained in my heart.

Well, on to happier things!

For one, I LOVE MY NEW CLASS!!! 10S03O is seriously FTW! Never said this about my other classes (I apologise to anyone who reads this and was from my previous classes) but I think that this is one class that I am going to enjoy my two years with.

Which other class goes roofing just for the fun of it? We must be the only class which actually bothered to explore our school to that extent. Sadly it rained before we managed to find a way to the roof of the C block on Monday.

Hmmm, thinking about it, this post should end somewhere around here. Anymore writing for me and it will become an incoherent rambling due to my sleepiness... And look, it's only 9pm. Something's wrong with me :)

Stay happy all!

'Tis the season

To be jolly!

Christmas is coming and although this is the holidays, I just can't find the time, energy or motivation to post anything much on this blog. Moreover, I just went on two overseas trips back to back, coming back to Singapore for a rest for only a day! Have enjoyed myself thoroughly during the hols, but I personally feel kind of bored now.

If any visitors (if there be still any on this kind of dead blog) have any idea for a topic to write about, please comment on the tag board or on this post. Thanks!

Singapore Formula 1 Night Race

This post, sadly, is about the Singapore Formula 1 Night Race that took place yesterday night.

Nope, I did not have the chance to get tickets to the actual race itself, but it was good enough to watch it on television. However, I must say, that as a Ferrari fan, it was a weekend that took me on an emotional rollercoaster and yesterday was a night of heartbreak and sadness.

It must be one of the first times that I actually watched the entire race. In previous races, I either just waited for the news in the newspapers or on the television to enlighten me on the results. Sometimes, even if I was slacking around in a hotel room on holiday and there was a race on television, I would not take the time to watch it. "How boring", I would say, "cars going round and round and round and round..."

To say that yesterday's night race was a boring one would be to tell a complete lie. Definitely an eventful race, I must say that it was thrilling at the very least.

Car crashes: check (times 3)

Random stuff: check (many)

Unexpected winner: check (Fernando Alonso, finally!)

But back to the Ferraris (is this spelt correctly?). 

Felipe Massa was perhaps a little rash in his decisions for the night. He was all out to win and would have easily done so if he had not made a stupid mistake in the pit. Driving out from the pit with the hose still attached? Why!? The only reason that I can think of is that he was too worried about losing his lead or dropping way too far behind. Making that mistake not only cost him the race with him dropping to the back of the pack, but in my opinion, has also cost him the drivers' championship.

Perhaps if we take a lesson from this incident, I can think of a way that I have benefitted from his mistake. I am definitely not going to be a driver like him, but I think that his mistake can be reflected in any other things that we do.

We start off leading, being way ahead of the rest. But we grow too worried about achieving success, we try too hard, and we end up making stupid mistakes that harm us in a way that we never thought was possible. In this day and age, if you are not the best, you are nothing. It is of utmost importance (at least for me) that one keeps in mind that it is the smallest things in life that will trip you up and cause you to fall. The people around you are also not going to help you up, they are just going to trample over you and even mock your downfall.

We also see Kimi Raikkonen, the former world champion. Yes, he may have earned the nickname "Iceman" for him keeping his cool in the worst of situations and yes, I respect him for the fighting spirit that he showed yesterday night, climbing back all the way to 4th in the race. I have no critique on him but I have learnt something from him as well.

He crashed with 4 laps to go. Perhaps a little bitter, a little anger, but all in all, I guess the more likely than not, disappointed with himself. All it took was a slip in concentration, a little mistake, and that sealed his fate on this race. 

He was focused on winning and I applaud him for that. We are all focused on our goals and aspirations and need to be reminded that a simple slip in our focus could easily bring down everything that we have worked for in the better part of our life.

As the newspaper put it, it was a nightmare race for Ferrari. And yes, it was also a nightmare race for any Ferrari fans that were fortunate enough to be sitting there in the grandstands. However, all in all, this was a race to remember and I can say that I am proud of this achievement of Singapore's :)

Let me think

Hmm...

No conclusion.

Haha, feeling random today cause I HAVE NO SCHOOL!!!

It got burnt down during our fire drill yesterday (joking)...

SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

ARGH!!!!!

I am positively going to die for SS documentary.

Why so? Someone's mother conveniently brings the camera back to work, so he cannot pass me the videos he supposedly has filmed.

Then when asked about the script that he was supposed to do? No answer.

As I said to him, if you don't want to do work, tell me. I do not really care.

My ability allows me to complete the work faster than him, and definitely to a better standard.

Just get out of this "Oh-I-will-do-but-later-sorry" kind of mode.

It just slows me down as I trust that you will do, and don't do that part, then later have to go back and do it cause you DID NOT DO IT!!!

A******

sry

Feeling tired, so no update on today...

Incongruity

Blog name: Nihil (which means nil; nothing)
Blog address: http://mattanmusings.blogspot.com/
Blog posts: Mainly informative posts about my life, not much of my own thoughts on the events that happen in it (compare to other blogs on my link list, they do so much more thinking than I do). Maybe it's just because I take this as a brain dead record of my life :)

Go figure...

I'm labeling this as "musings"...