You know it hurts when you sit down somewhere, think about it, and start crying.

It just hurts when the people around you are excelling and you are expected to do so. And the worse part is that the people around you just don't think about the feelings you have inside, saying things that just make you feel worse.

I felt so hollow and useless for the past 2 weeks after getting back my papers. It just got worse when I saw my progress report and saw my percentiles.

It just hurts to hell.

When you can't find the motivation to move on and yet you have to, how do you make yourself plod on the road that only seems to lead to more misery and pain?

I don't know. I'm lost right now. I thought I had found my path halfway into the school semester.

And now, I don't want to follow the path I'm taking. I need to find a new road that leads me somewhere other than failure.

Am I trying to hard? Should I just go back to the lackadaisical attitude I held last year? Perhaps then I won't feel this pain. I won't feel the pain at all.

Show me the way and I'll take it.

Life is cruelly funny in this way. It leads you somewhere, dumps you there, rips off all your confidence in what you're doing and leaves you to rot in a ditch.

All the time you laugh this hollow, humourless laugh at your sad, pitiful plight.

All the time you hurt inside.

All the time you wish you were somewhere else instead of where you are right now.